Sunday, March 15, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009


Saturday, May 24, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008

You made me cry
You tore me apart
You left me in tears
You shattered my heart

It wasn't your fault
I guess it was me
For love can't be forced
Perhaps we weren't meant to be

It still doesn't help
Now that I know
Because for some reason
My heart won't let go

I've tried more than once
To get over you
But you make it so hard
With cute things that you do

I thought love was joy
But I've nothing to gain
Just sorrow, tears
And a little more pain

The day the pain started
Reality came too
It was the day that I realized
I'll never be with you

Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Why did you lie?
AHA! Guess what, now I feel like a DUMBASSSHIT! Believing in all your lies and crap?!?
I can't help it but get a good laugh at myself! I am so fucking dumb and fucking shit to believe your crap! So all along .............. It's like that!
Feelings? what's thr to cheat? I have no say in that, no say if you had cheated my feelings, cos it's not my stand. I love you, &I dont ask for anything much, I just want your smile, &your laugh. It's not my fucking ass to care! Why must you be like that... (why did I blame you?) It's my fault, Why am I so dumb to believe you! Fucked up! I am over, &finally over you shit. Trap in this box for years alr. I thought, you did ask me if it hurt (mybleedingthumb), I thought it was nth, didnt know that it acty lasted for THREE YEARS &HURTS SO MUCH! So painful, that I can't cry nor tear... So pricky, that I laughed!
All these... I thought, yeah, sure, thr's definitely no end in us, like I know thr's no result even if I stubornly insist in lovin' you. I know we will never get together. It sucks when the person you like doesnt feel the same way as you do. But why do this to me???
AHA. You're not ego, you dont suck! You know why? Cos' I'm the one whose to blame, I'm the blind one, the ego one, the mastermind for all. If it isnt for me to like you from the start, all's not going to happen. So, IT'S MY FAULT, isn't it!!!!!

Thursday, April 24, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008

Whatever!
JX You made me Sad... Though he made me sad too! AHAH!
You must be thinking i dont seemed sad... Kuku!
I dont care, not crying anymore! D:
Tears drop on my guitar.. wooooohoooo!
Saw him morning, gheyshyt! D:

Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Tuesday, April 15, 2008

It has been a freaking long time since Johnny's here!
*giggles*
Hey there!

Thursday, February 28, 2008
The first step~ Thursday, February 28, 2008

:-D I love the way he smile, but I no longer can see it and smile at him with the same feeling. Things just get out of control. Today, the first day I tried to let go and not think of him. Perhaps, not thinking of him was kind of dufficult to happen, but I proved myself and to many people, I am able not to talk about him. I made my first step, an improvement. :-D

Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008

I have to accept the fact that life aint perfect. Nothing is perfect in the world. I am quite sad about that, yet isnt it beautiful of it, because since everyone is imperfect, everyone is EQUAL.

That was rather random. Today is a fine day with a fine weather. Thanks X for saving me from awkwardness. X is a wonderful guy, him being such one, really makes me ashamed of myself. I love him, he saved me awkwardness, he saved me from all stuffs, he made me and helped me though I thought perhaps life isnt any easier for me. Especially, he himself loves the other girl. He knows the feeling, he helped me out. I really loves him for all the wonderful stuffs. He wants me to stop hurting myself and everything, however these little things really touched me.

I never knew it. Till recently, everything just seemed to surface and all the things supposed to be unknown are so naked now. We know what is happening. He knows my feelings towards him, I knew he knew it, but I thought that he thought I no longer treat him as the guy, now I know he knew it. I had to face him, laugh together, smile, talk.


Guy, thanks for being such a wonderful person. You really make a difference in my life. Now, all I can say is, thanks for being there. I always thought loving you silently is the best thing ever, till I realise, this has never been the case, a silent quiet unknown love I thought so all along. You knew it from the very start, you played along well. However, thanks real lots for that, saving me from many awkward times. I mean it. There's definitely an end to it and I thought how nice it would be if it ends today. There's a tomorror everyday and a every new today each day. For months, for years, I have been telling myself, I'll end it tomorrow. And ya right, the tomorror I look forward to, then seemed just an excuse for living in the joy I had on your expense. You had really been one great guy I have ever met. I really love these days alot. Sorry for making your days suck lots just because of my selfishness sometimes. Lots of thanks and apologies for you. Guessed, this will be the last time already. Let it all end on a perfect note. Thanks for all~


JOHNNY :-D
The day is BEAUTIFUL.
MY LINE~
GONE ARE THE DAYS



I AM JOHNNY
JOHNNY, the HAPPY TOOT


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